New Years Resolutions

I make a rule to never make them. The New Years resolutions that we put up for ourself so that we can feel like failures when we cannot follow them through. So few people do. By the end of March, they stop going to the gym, have their first pizza and that one cigarette that turned into a whole package that night out with the friends. And so it starts again. After all, we are creatures of habit.

So no New Years resolutions this year either. Instead I will do what I always do and try to be a better person all through the year. Little by litte and with the right to once and a while indulge myself in the few pleasures that makes life worth living without having to feel guilty about it.

I’m not even going to promise my readers that I will try and write more in my blog. I’m not sure I will. True, it is my new job that has taken up a lot of my time, forcing me to work very long hours since it’s all so new and since I managed to step right into the launch of a new product which in itself means a lot of extra work. But it is not only that. I don’t really like writing when things are going too well. It would feel like bragging and no one likes people who brag.

No promises this year, just the hope that this year will be better than the last.

Indecisive

The documentary that my boyfriend has been working with for over a year is finally finished. It turned out great. I was impressed. By far the best thing he’s ever done. By far the best thing that anyone I know has ever done in terms of film.

I’ve seen all the material and I’ve seen bits and pieces while he’s been working and when he wanted someone to give him direction, feedback, ideas. But the end result was so much better than anything that he has showed me.

Too bad he’s giving up on the notion of creating films. He really has potential. Yet at the same time the selfish part of me is relieved. It’s taken far too much time that we could have spent together doing other things.

I’m indecisive.